This is a very personal situation and im in a really difficult spot right now. Just 1 month along and trying to understand my options. Please be kind, im already stressed enough.
This is a serious decision and not something to handle on your own or with home methods at all. Please see a qualified gynac who can guide you safely and confidentially about your options. Your safety matters most here.
Whatever you're going through, you dont have to figure it out alone. Sit with a good gynac and talk honestly, they handle these things with care and privacy. Please dont take any risk on your own.
Whatever you decide, this needs a proper doctor, never any home or over the counter shortcut, that can be dangerous. Go to a gynac, talk it through openly, they'll guide you on a safe path.
I totally understand this is a hard and personal moment. Whatever your reason, the safest and kindest thing for yourself is to see a doctor who can guide you properly. Please take care of your health first.