Im in a really difficult situation right now and not in a place to continue this. Just trying to understand what my options are and what is safe. Honestly feeling very alone with this.
Honestly this is not something to figure out from internet replies. A qualified doctor needs to advise you based on your health and how far along you are. Please book a proper consultation, that is the only safe route.
Please dont try anything at home for this, it can be really dangerous. This is something only a doctor should handle safely and legally. Please see a gynac and talk to her openly, she will guide you properly.
Whatever your situation is, please dont do anything risky on your own. Go to a doctor, talk to her without fear, she will help you safely. Take care of yourself first.